Late nights, wondering mind.

As I lay here (thanksgiving eve) letting my mind wonder like many nights before this...I can't help but think about how close we are to meeting our sweet girl. I never imagined my life ending up in this direction or being picked to carry such a beautiful angel. So many thoughts rush through my mind constantly I finally decided to start writing them down. I have a journal I use to put most of my thoughts in but I finally chose to do the public type blogging so maybe my posts would be of some use to another mom out there going through the same thing. It's not an easy raps to travel but it is worth it all in the end. Love conquers all. I never thought my heart could love so much and so deeply but it does. I love my family more than anything and I am beyond blessed for everything The Lord has given us. Many nights I cried and begged God to change this for me, but tonight I thank him. I thank him for giving me a beautiful baby girl, for giving me 9 wonderful months with her, for blessing our family with close friends who pray for us constantly, for many many things.